Posted on Wednesday, January 11, 2012 at 11:28 PM
You seem really unhappy recntly. Hope he treats you well, treats you the way you want it to be, treat you better than me.
Posted on Friday, November 25, 2011 at 8:58 PM
changed man?
havent been blogging for quite awhile and i doubt theres anyone reading this blog anymore. felt like blogging tonight cos recently theres been a few things that have been troubling me and hopefully can use this as a vent.
its been about 3 months since we've not talked to each other. if im not wrong. time really flies without you even knowing it. ive been serving the army for about 2 months and i really wish i wasnt here. in this bunk typing all these things. trainings keep me busy everyday but when night falls, i just feel so alone.
everyone seem to be busy with their own stuff and dont really have time to meet up. half of the cancer group is in the army, the rest have entered their career. i really miss school alot, when we could just sit around relax, lepak at the taxi stand, do stupid stuff together, sing stupid songs but now its just a part of my memory, fond memories. i feel like crying right now but i have to be strong and carry on with my life.
just saw ur happy photos with him the other day, i should be happy for u all but i do not know why im feeling otherwise now. i was the one who let you go the other time, i was the selfish one who did not want to be tied down by anything when i enter army. even though i hate to say this but i really wish u all the best as i know that he can definitely treat u better and make u better than i was with you last time. whats on my mind now? nothing. im just too tired to think of anything.
wanna thank you for all the beautiful memories that uve created for me, letting know that i was once loved by someone before and my mistake not to cherish you enough. i guess if i had the chance to turn back time, im sure ill do the same thing. maybe this is the life that both of us to lead, may all the dreams that i rejected and denied you in the past come true. sincere and true from my heart.
however, i really wanna see you for one last time and say that im sorry for what i have done and being such a selfish person to make all the decisions. i wish that we werent so different, then the stupid club would have lasted forever.sorry for giving u hopes and promises that were never met. the dream of living in japan together, open a cafe and lead a quiet life. sorry for not being there for you when u needed me and flaring up at you when i had a bad day. hmm... im lost for words. too much to say, too much for me to think about.
Bryan showed me a photo taken on ur birthday, really wished i was there to wish you happy birthday. but guess i dont have the chance to do so anymore.
next week, ill be going for my field camp, hopefully get into OCS and get a rank of an officer. i have let many people down before. right now, i think the least i can do is to make my parents happy. havent done much for them and hopefully if i can get into OCS i will finally do them proud for once.
Im glad ure doing well now, and ill wish you all the best for ur future. i believe that one day ur dreams will all come true and that will be the day u will finally be happy, ur prince charming, your fame and being successful. ill live my life well too.
from
the boy you once loved
Posted on Friday, January 7, 2011 at 5:00 PM
Hello guys, its been 6 weeks into internship and i feel all drained up now
ahhhhh~~~!!!!..................
Meeting my classmates fordinner later. Wee~~
and message to my gf:
just bear with it k?? just a few weeks more and we'll be free=D
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will be back to blog again
ciaosasasas